Open Question: How can i sort my life out?Everythins a mess,my health,my house,my finances,my family,everything!?

im a 43 yr old single mum with kids aged 13 and 11. and everything a mess. my house looks like its been ransacked. and its my own fault cos i have no routine and cant be bothered with it half the time. im in debt, and keep havin red letters that i don’t even wanna open cos i know wot they’re gonna be. iv made promises to pay instalments etc but then i don’t stick to them cos i run out of money. my kids moan when i say no to giving them money, and tell me why don’t i getter a better paid job then if i don’t have enough money.
the kids fight all the time, sometimes gets physical. and whenever i row with them they run to their fathers and say they’re gonna live there. then a few weeks later, they argue with him and they come back here. i never know where i am. iv tried every means of discipline going, but it just don’t work with them. it don’t help that their dad sides with them half the time.
Im about 2 stone overweight, and that’s mostly around my middle,im 5ft 2 and nearly 12 stone.i look like a buddha. i (think) i suffer with irritable bowel syndrome, i seem to have all the symptoms,who knows. but i know i look 9 months pregnant.
And now my work hours have been cut down from 16 hrs to 8. At first the thing that came to mind, was, i’m glad of the break! But now iv got to sort all that stuff out with the Tax Credits people. I don’t think i can claim Tax Credits unless i work over 16 hrs! or should i say iv been laid off and cut my losses and go on dole? at least id get my rent paid and council tax then, and i wouldn’t be behind with them then, even though im hundreds of pounds in arrears anyway!!!
and all that’s just for starters! lol. help!
oh and ive read all the self help books on every subject ive covered on here, and more. but nothing seems to help me.
Oh and ive also been on anti depressants for the last 5 yrs as i thought i must be depressed, and i eventually found the right one for me(one that didnt make me dopey and drowsy…god knows i sleep enough as it is!!!). but although they made me a bit happier, nothin else in my life changed, so i’ve decided to gradually come off them after discussing it with my doctor! SO MY PROBLEM MUST BE, “JUST” ME!!!

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